Not Yet Static

According to yesterday’s WordPress site statistics, the search engine term “encouraging screen saver” brought three seekers to the Archives.

After a two week stint of Jeb being ill, I have been trying to catch up on all things that fell by the wayside. A mission that seems to have pulled me from my beloved writing hour these past days.

I feel like a cliched, old person caught in the typical rat race when I say I’m seeking more hours in the day. Oh, please let that not be me.

I read yesterday’s search term listing and recoil in an image of the Archives trapped in some static screen save, forever frozen in my last post from (gasp) three days ago.

I note the entire term includes the word “encouraging”, so I’ll perpetuate the positive here. Forget copyright for the moment and hope someone found an image that somehow touched them. Remind myself that life has cycles and this is merely a short pause in a long life of creative expression.

Right now, it’s well past time to get Jeb up for breakfast. These words are a random and hopeful stretch. I have no photo for this post. Sorry, screen saver seekers, your search will come up short.

Looks like today is a simple announcement (mostly to myself) that this site may be on a pause of sorts, but it’s not yet static.

Diary of a Sleepy Woman

The coffee grinder is with me behind closed doors of the bathroom at 3am. It whirs in a muffled grind beneath the padding of a thick bath towel. I guess this is what you call considerate insomnia, as my occasional real-early rises occur, now, within the presence of another. On this particular morning, the Bohemian rests soundly and Jeb is crashed out on the couch, nearby.

I should be sleeping and replenishing my reserves. It’s been a week of caring for Jeb in a second wave of sickness – this time the flu, with a full night of off-and-on vomiting. While monitoring his temperature and forcing fluids, I’ve juggled work schedules, washed sheets and made dinner. No, I did not make it to posting to the Archives yesterday. But I did capture a centipede that slithered next to Jeb’s bed, leaving the Bohemian to simply stare, empty dustpan in his hands, as I quickly disposed of it (with blessings). (Centipedes outside, I come in peace. Centipedes inside, by the bed of my sick son, not welcome).

Tiring as this may be, I’m not alone in my labors of love. And this is something new. The Bohemian is a constant, continually keeping the kitchen sink empty. Loads of clean laundry I dump from the basket magically transform to neat piles (my underwear has never been folded so neatly before). When he’s not taking out the compost or sweeping the kitchen floor, the Bohemian’s in our back yard pruning. I look up from my work through the window, to see him staring in at me from the top of the kukui nut tree, wielding a hand saw and fat grin. He’s opening the view.

Yes, I am surrounded by new sights, fresh viewpoints, expanded perspectives.

I’m recalling the day I gifted him a toothbrush to keep at my house. This evolved to the offer of half a drawer for two sarongs and t-shirt. Now, he’s got four drawers and we hang 13 of his shirts in the closet. The sight is surprisingly strange, but I like it – yes, those are men’s clothes hanging next to mine.

After a full and long day, we sigh and find ourselves face to face in the kitchen. He’s been digging holes and making electrical repairs. I’ve been up since 1am with vomit and centipedes. We’re smiling but I’m wondering if this free-spirited soul I met on the beach may be having second thoughts about all this domesticity.

Before I can consider it further, Jeb enters with Diary of a Wimpy Kid: The Last Straw, requesting the Bohemian read aloud. The man is surely tired. One would understand that he may not be in the mood to delve into reading a children’s story right now. Especially, since English is a second language – one that he’s learned completely by sound, not sight. But ever-amazing, he agrees to read the passage Jeb indicates – the one where Greg wants to make a good impression on the girl he likes at the school dance, but his friend intercedes and ruins the moment.

The Bohemian reads each word carefully. He’s patient as he trips through a few phrases. With the tables turned, Jeb can occasionally tell him how to sound it out. He reads not one, but at least ten pages, laughs and says, “This is a good book.”

Dinner is bubbling in the oven. Jeb is on the rug, listening with a smile. The Bohemian is standing in the kitchen slowly reading with sweet intent. Greg’s mom is trying to herd the Heffley family to an Easter Sunday service. I’m finally sitting down for the first time all day.

I don’t’ know where  this tale is going (ours, that is, – and, of course, how could I?) Certainly, at times I’m afraid of sudden turns in the plot. But for now, in this simple moment in the kitchen with Jeb, the Bohemian and the voice of Greg Heffley ala a thick Czech accent, I’d say that I’m liking this story.

Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reserved

Tax Talk and Lace Underwear

I told him that we may want
to keep it romantic
all this family stuff
seemed to take
even the best ones down
my fear
that once he was really in
there’d be more chores
less
candlelight

and now
he’s in
at 5:55am
the kitchen, that is
where we’re whispering
the sweet somethings
the practicals
Jeb’s fever that woke him in the night
strep throat symptoms
and general excise taxes

this morning
before sunrise
it’s the takeover
from sexy
to sickness
schedules

at least I’m aware
standing there
in nothing
but my Ganesha t shirt
and Victoria’s Secret
underwear
that something here
has changed

our meeting adjourned
he’ll trim his beard in the bathroom
I’ll come to write poetry
while Jeb still sleeps
the sun’s rising
soon
there’ll be
wet wash cloths to wring
a thermometer to monitor
coordination of
work and dinner

and then
he says
“come see the sky!”
we step out onto the balcony
whack webs away
to see
pink clouds
hear the birds
gaze upon
the sliver that’s left
of the moon

 

Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reserved