I spend the early dark of morning
in headphones
Eddie Vedder singing Cat Stevens
Gillian Welch and David Rawlings
writing poetry
Himalayan waterfalls and desire
too close to disclose
I swirl in sunrise and feeling
in my writing hour
I am alive
when motherhood calls
Jeb’s sunburn throbbing
his small red shoulders pull me
from foreign lands and eddies
back to thick aloe goo
soothing skin with words
blowing cool upon his back
easing tears
this morning
I am seeping liquid
spread out all over this world
Five gallons of golden sweetness is rolled out of storage, the funnel set in place, and the thick, rich nectar begins to fall.
This is the stuff of local flowers. Our friends down the street have an apiary. The tropical flora here is plentiful and these bees are inspired. This five gallons is a small portion of the fruit of their labor.
Jeb holds the funnel while Mary pours. But I know what he’s waiting for. And when she’s done gifting me with a gallon of flower power, he lifts the dripping funnel to his mouth and lets the sticky sweet roll down his chin.
“This was harvested May 1st,” Mary says.
“Ahh!” I say. “Beltane honey.”
“That’s right.”
courtesy of the The Center for Oneness
Jeb’s the epitome of summer. Barefoot and bare-chested on a sunset lawn, licking honey fingers, one by one.
I flash back on the Beltane fire we had right in this backyard. How we jumped across the flames and made our wishes. How at evening’s end I had a moment alone with embers, bridging time and space.
On a night that marked the mid-point between Spring and Summer, I could sense the future feel of Fall. I knew I was sowing seeds that would be harvested in Autumn. At what hearth would I be standing come that time? Would those wishes pressed to starlight, fanned by Beltane flames of promise, have come real?
Right now, we’re deep in July. The Dahlia’s in the garden are full bloom. The basil grows thick. We make popsicles from purple lilikoi in the freezer.
At sunset we gather kindling for the fire. Lick the smooth, glass edges of a gallon jar of honey.
I sleep in past nine
waking just in time
to see an insect
drown in mango juice
I guess I moved too slowly
in the kitchen
I try
to let myself
embody
rest
a concept
to feel
the way I move my hands
pour water in the glass
last night under moonlight
I spoke to the writer
about submissions
how I get to submit
to detachment
how we both got ours in
just at the deadline
I come home from starlight
fire smoke and red wine
with an armload of harvest
from Mary’s garden
chard and kale and basil
three ripening papayas
this morning
by the basin
marigold and gardenia
hold velvet treasure
in their petals
so unrelated
they are perfectly paired
in Saturday sunlight
I’m a potpourri
just settling
mango juice and coffee beans
midnight work projects
and art submissions
swim lessons and poetry
womanhood and mothering
a body in motion
this morning
rest