Living the Answers

The toast pops up, Jeb’s breakfast is ready. I’m wrapping up a quick morning catch up on the phone with my girlfriend who lives in California. She’s just dropped her kids at school and has pulled up to her next appointment.

She and I, we grab these windows. Try to make our time on the phone potent within the frames we’re given.

At the end of our conversation, she leaves me with some gems. Three questions, ala Deepak Chopra. The “Soul Questions” that he suggests be asked, daily, before going into meditation. I wipe the butter from my fingers and jot them down before we say goodbye.

Who am I?
What do I want?
What is my dharma (life purpose)?

Deepak’s advice: “Ask the questions…and then live the answers.”

So I don’t have a daily meditation practice. Even my regular yoga practice has had a hiccup since school ended and summer has Jeb home with me in the mornings. So I’ll do the hybrid thing for now and just try to remember to contemplate these questions throughout my day – like when I’m washing dishes or chopping garlic.

Or, like now, when it’s 5:30 in the morning and I’m typing at the computer. All is swirling around in my early morning head and there seems to be some thread between Deepak’s questions and that Stan Lee documentary we watched last night. The one featuring all of these people doing “superhuman” things.

Take Eskil Ronningsbakken of Norway, for example. What’s his dharma? I don’t know but the man has certainly found his place – right in the pocket – to be able to balance himself in such precarious positions. His epic aerobatics manifest the visual proof of being perfectly in the moment.

As I drive to my next appointment and juggle summer camp, work and the monthly phone bill, it’s a stretch for me to remember to ask my soul questions. But if I don’t, I can watch myself fall down into a rabbit hole of rat-race nonsense, so bleak and hopelessly unbearable.

I try to give that gaping, vacuous hole a wide berth. Stay far from its sucking edge. But some days its pull is stronger than others.

These Deepak questions seem to be a panacea for falling into this senseless abyss. My soul longs to live the answers. But how?

I suspect Deepak and Eskil probably have a phone bill to pay, too. But they seem to be mastering that sweet spot. Lingering at some consummate threshold – the true Divine – where the mundane and the profound entwine.

Eskil Ronningsbakken courtesy of http://www.getintravel.com (click the photo for more images)

In Terms of Searching

Still landing from my trip away from home, I come to WordPress a little groggy, not yet quite back in my writing groove.

I sip coffee and scan my WP dashboard. Site stats reveal secrets about this “For the Archives” cyber-venture I’ve been on for over a year.

Like how two people logged on in Slovenia and one person found this site from somewhere in Macedonia.

453 posts rest here, and statistics show the searches that bring browsers to my pages. People want to know about Patron, see pictures of big waves and read about the goddess Lakshmi.

And hands down, a steady, constant search: Kermit the Frog’s full body.

So here’s an encore of Kermit revealed. (Cute as a button, isn’t he?)

Vacation as a Condiment

There was a moment
no, wait
I think it was more than one
all strung together
seamlessly

a weave of ease
the calm
the nothing-to-do
nowhere-to-go
no-appointments-to-keep

just me
the Bohemian
and the definition
of vacation

Sudoku poolside
sunset wanderings
chocolate chunks and a fireplace
that French wine at midnight

whoops
no cell reception
ahhh
no internet connection
oh
well

how I felt
so much
exactly like myself
free
and unshackled
from looming have-to’s

yet even
in utopia
I could see that corner ahead
it would surely turn
me back
to all the scheduled chores

oh
how
to take that sense
of centered peace
and fullness
and bring it in
to a 5pm grocery shop
desktop bill pays
and a second grade multiplication quiz

What’s for dinner?

I’d like a giant helping
of vacationaise
please
a juicy condiment
right on top
of my main course

Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reserved