Watch and Learn

I wake from dreams of highways
intertwined
maneuvering speedways
and making lists

covers shift
arms lift
I sigh to the morning
with my foot
tucked between
his ankles

I know
just outside
there’s a newly planted
garden bed
sunrise rays
shine upon the starts
we planted
last night
by the sliver moon

how the Bohemian
parsed them out
placing pots
atop soil
imagining
growth potential

kale with marigolds
the peppers and tomatoes
where do you want the dill?

we could deliberate
with fresh soil
under fingernails
if the sunflower
will shade the strawberries
but then the Shama sings
a serenade
where all maps stop

in this terrain
no need to tame
chaotic lush
full growth
not here
in our little
six by twelve-foot
plot
we’ve got Spirulina in the soil
a year round growing season

let’s just put ’em
in the dirt
let them grow
watch and learn
watch and learn

courtesy of jon.roberts
courtesy of jon.roberts

Good Things Happen

There’s a draft that sits on my desktop, dated March 16. Last Friday, for anyone that’s noticing, there was no post on the Archives.

A rare occasion – I came to the page, took the time to write, but could not complete the piece.

The theme?

My first sentence began, “I think I’m being overtaken,” as I went on to list the three “biggies” in life of which I have had strong opinions.

Marriage, pets and babies.

Babies, well, Jeb sort of fulfilled all maternal longings in me. I’m thirty-eight and finally getting free. Diapers and toddling are in my distant past.

Pets are simple. It makes no sense to get a dog when you’re renting month-to-month with dreams of traveling the world.

And marriage. I’ve spent a lifetime puzzling over the it. Living through my parents’ divorce(s) and experiencing major separations of my own. My heart has forever held a sweet space for a love that was so enduring, but my mind has wondered how the heck a person can promise a constant love when the only certainty is change.

So befuddled by the marriage concept, my brain so tied in knots, I could not articulate myself enough to finish that March 16 piece. And so the Archives remained vacant last Friday.

That afternoon, the Bohemian and I found ourselves finished with work, alone together, and the sun was shining. It’d been at least a month since we’d been to the beach. So we threw two sarongs, two oranges and a beer in a bag with a camera and headed down to our favorite spot – the place where we met.

The rest of the day is a collage of signs and symbols. There was that naked man standing under the waterfall springs. He was overflowing with giddiness, yipping and howling at the pure beauty of being free and alive.

A shard of pottery with a blue feather. A circle made of 11 stones and bamboo stalks. A piece of rose quartz embedded at its center. An avocado seed, two halves. Albatross soaring over our heads. The soft warmth inside that circle where we lay our blanket down.Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reserved

Things happen. Sometimes good things. The Bohemian tells it that he saw light. All around us, all around me. And in a soulful moment of divine inspiration I was hearing my full name come from his mouth in question.

Jessica Lynn Dofflemyer. Will you marry me?

No answer would come from my head. I dove deep into the depths of heart and soul. And what I found there were no more questions. No doubt. Only an overflowing fountain of love that reverberated through my being and enveloped me in joy.

Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reservedI would get to live and love with this man for the rest of my days.

Simply put, this made me feel ecstatically happy.

And so we both said yes to Love that day. Got naked ourselves and got tossed in the winter tide of the ocean. Dried off and watched the sunset. Marveled in the very spot where we had met six months before. Said ‘thank you’ many times.

The Bohemian took those two halves of avocado seed. Brought them back together and buried them in the circle’s center, right next to the rose quartz.

Marriage, pets and babies. There’s decent logic for all of these three.

Baby? Well, it’s doubtful.

Oh, I’m sure we’ll eventually get a dog.

And marriage? Looks like there will be a barefoot Bohemian wedding in the Fall.

Sometimes, good things just happen.

Morning Rounds

In our house, I am the first to rise.

I wake before the birds begin to sing, just before the sky seeps pink on our backyard mango tree.

I brew coffee, light sandalwood incense and type some string of words.

Then I return to silence. Our sleeping house is still full of dreaming.

There are two beds.
In one, a Bohemian man deep rests his gardening body.
In the other, an eight year old boy is fluffed beneath a comforter of feathers.

Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reservedIn early light I make my rounds.

Crawl in beside the Bohemian to feel the restful closeness which I know will soon morph to activities of breakfast and jingling car keys. He may never open his eyes – not quite this early. But his hands will meet me, arms will pull me in.

Eventually, they will release me to the second bed. Where I’ll slide in and tuck beneath the full soft blankets, filling my nose with the soft scent of my son’s hair. Feel his boney elbow press against my ribs. Whisper to him, “it’s another beautiful day” and know not just what he’ll do.

In fickle eight-year old fashion, he may turn and hug me tight. Or he may squirm and grumble “mom, I’m tired…”

The mango comes on in golden glory. Birds seem to celebrate the sun. The stick of incense, now ash. Coffee mug is empty.

The stirring begins. Soon morning’s water will be splashing in the sink.