October 24, 2010

I’m doing the very thing they say you’re not supposed to do.

If you have insomnia you should not get up.  Certainly do not turn on the computer.

But let’s not call this insomnia.  It’s much more romantic to blame it on the brightness of the moonlight that’s casting midnight shadows through the window.  Wild with a full, illumined moon, I’m throwing caution to the wind at 1:15 and posting my daily chronicle.

In this reckless abandon, I’m tossing open the curtain in raw exposure to reveal myself in all my cyber nakedness.  Yes, here’s a screen shot of my Sexy (in this case, not so sexy) Stats.  Thanks to Nick, who’s hiding out in Saginaw (at least one of my of two loyal site visitors is going to love the mitten connection) I’ve got Flot to make my charting more robust than ever and my stats page “super sexy.”

Posting about your blog stats is pretty unsexy, I would say.  Especially when you’ve got single digit numbers like me.  But I’m feeling careless in the moonlight.  Besides, what do I have to lose to expose myself this way?  As the bar graph reveals, this bold move will only be viewed by a handful, half of which are crawling search engine robots.  They’ll never read these words.

So what am I doing here, standing naked all alone?

The words of William Stafford come as some semblance of an answer (October 9 post:  The Way It Is).  I’m following the thread.

And I sort of like that no one’s following me in this process.

An artist reminded me recently of the cycle of the cocoon to butterfly.  That there’s no need to tear into the chrysalis before it’s time.

And there’s no holding back the butterfly at lift off.

Who knows, maybe my site stats will get sexier.  For now I’m just following that silken thread which may unravel to me to flight or wind me down some other road.

October 23, 2010

photo by Jessica Dofflemyer

I’m back under the moon with the fire.  This time it’s Hanalei Bay, no wind, small surf.  Spotlight in the sky illumines smiles and the musicians.

I’m just on the periphery, tapping a knee, leaving the strings and chord progressions to the players.  There is the jazz musician, the songwriter – and the bagpipe player is here again with the low whistle and effortless melodies.

I try to watch their finger placements, see if I can recognize a chord with my eyes.  The ever-encouraging songwriter sees my interest and invites me in.  Three guitars?  No, no, I’m OKI’m loving listening.

But he doesn’t believe my words and hands me his Martin.  Goes back to his truck for another guitar, returns and tells me the chords so I can join them.

For the rest of the night I play with the musicians.  Fumble through and let my fingers ache.  I don’t mention that it’s been 10 years since I played with anyone.  That the few chords I know I taught myself from Neil Young‘s Decade songbook.  (Though these points were fairly apparent.)

This kind circle isn’t much for disclaimers.  The words are saved for other things.  The speed of sound and the vibration at which a note is moving.  How the relation of the fret board corresponds to every planet in our solar system.  The B-flat note that ripples out from the Black Hole.  How about that time in Olympia when Phish told the audience they were going to try to make their instruments emanate light waves through the speakers? Have you heard of Alexander Scriabin the mystic musician?

If there is a tribe of music lovers, these are its members.  I am with my people, though a humble initiate to the fold.  The jazz musician moves his hands along the neck of his guitar with graceful ease, ringing notes to the sea air in perfect harmony.

I could stay here in these sounds all night.

What you are comes to you.
–  Ralph Waldo Emerson

In love’s godlike breathing, there’s the innermost aspect of the universe.
Alexander Scriabin

October 22, 2010

Credit: kariMelissa © kariMelissa

On the full Hunter’s Moon we gather.

Around the fire we recite and read –Baudelaire, Rilke, Merwin…our own.

The bagpipe player plays flutes.

I sit on my hands.

Even though they want to strum, I wait until I’m home alone again to play that song and sing.

Sangria, enchiladas and cake with blueberries.  No wind and such bright moonlight.

Beside the embers we spin our words, make bio-char, then share it with the garden.