Fishnet Stockings and Fresh-Cut Wood

Finding myself writing more privately in my journal than wanting to publicize every thought through WordPress, I’m wondering where to draw the line.

Like do I mention the image I woke with this morning?  The one that came as a bird’s-eye view while I sifted in that space just between sleeping and waking.

courtesy of Horia Varlan

It was a big sky place, like Wyoming.  Cotton clouds in wide open blue.  An ariel view of the back of a pick up truck.  Half of the truck bed was stacked with fresh-cut wood.  And resting just beside the pile were  legs, one bent at the knee, reclining freely in black, fishnet stockings.

This may be more information than anyone needs to know.  Freud is dead but I suppose here’s a time where one could conjure his analysis.  But let’s forget that.

The beauty of art is to let go of the mind.  Play in the realms where nothing makes sense.  Tap this source of possibility.  Enjoy the mysterious confusion.

art by Leo Fontan

Why not start the day with a picture of infinite sky, a well-stocked supply of wood and beautiful legs naturally taking in the scene?

What the heck.  Why not tell you about it?

Ripening

Just days past the Harvest Moon, I welcome the gift of freshly picked tangerines and avocados.  I am a wealthy woman in abundance.

Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reserved

Within the corridors of me, stories grow like fruit on the tree.  Pieces gain my attention and I watch them ripen.

The story of an old boyfriend, my first love.  His Facebook message 20 years later, trying to explain the demise of our relationship via the latest rock and roll documentary he’s seen.  I’d forgotten how much he matched his life milestones via the album releases of his favorite band.  How I’m surprised to find he still does at the age of 40.

This fruit-bearing writing tree may also yield something profound through rebellion to my vanity.  The musings of my superficial considerations of gravity on my 38-year-old derriere offer insightful food for thought.  Hopefully a laugh.

And it seems that with this time every year, I revisit my autumn in New England in 1995.  The landscape there epitomized the season.  Golden sunlight through thick, glass windows.  Leaves turning the colors of fire.  The morning displays of apples and pumpkins I arranged at the Gardner, Massachusetts produce store.  Bob Marley in the tape deck of my Subaru.  Walks through the woods through Civil War sites and ancient cemeteries.  Long velvet skirts and a wool sweater.

These harbingers are growing.  Not quite ready to harvest, these tales soak in September sun while I take note.  Enjoy the ripening.

 

Settling Swirl

A fluid morning.

Rise by 4:30 and lounge around in darkness with ink on paper.  Words just for me by lamplight.

Jeb rises softly by 6 and moves with ease from bed, to couch, to breakfast table.  He eats cereal while I sip coffee.  I read a chapter from Flat Stanley (the Lambchop family has launched into space).

Spelling words get written three times each.  Peanut butter and jelly sandwich is prepared.  Lunch bag packed.

There’s still time to unload the dishwasher.  Clear my sink of dishes.  I even take my vitamins.

These small details, so completely mundane.  Yet the smoothness of their execution, how each movement flows into the next with ease…  These ordinary elements swirl to bring a settling that rests within my cells.  So deeply satisfying.  I feel en-lightened.

Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reserved