now’s the time
with open eyes
no matter
that the clock
isn’t yet
four
you
its
your
time
to seize
pre-sunrise
the one
true
portion
of the day
that
completely
belongs
to you
no expectation
from anything
in this world
freedom found
as shadows
illuminate
pen to paper
a steaming mug
silence
here
nothing need
be
create
respond
or just doodle
it matters
not
so much!
at this
divine
outrageous
hour
no one
thinks
you
are
awake
The moon rounds to fullness, which is why, perhaps, I’m roused at 3am.
I am fine to find myself wrapped in the warmth of jersey sheets, my husband sleeping next to me, my own eyes open in the dark.
It’s time to read Mary Oliver. This is the whisper heard upon my waking.
So by 3:11, I’m barefoot with a cardigan in the kitchen. Making coffee and lighting patchouli incense in the stove top flame.
A line of fragrant smoke streams, coffee cup steams, and laptop computer keys are traced by fingers following a thread.
I find Wild Geese. High and soaring.
Feel the soft animal of my body, so close and tender.
Such relief to find myself just nestled. Letting in the sweet space.
Loving what I love.
Wild Geese
You do not have to be good. You do not have to walk on your knees For a hundred miles through the desert, repenting. You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves. Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine. Meanwhile the world goes on. Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain are moving across the landscapes, over the prairies and the deep trees, the mountains and the rivers. Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air, are heading home again. Whoever you are, no matter how lonely, the world offers itself to your imagination, calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting — over and over announcing your place in the family of things.