October 20, 2010

Last night I began reading Stones of the Sur, the book of photographs by Morley Baer with poetry from Robinson Jeffers.  It speaks of a time in the 1930’s when artists like Ansel Adams and Alfred Steiglitz honed their craft and inspired.

Baur and Jeffers found a home on the remote and rugged coast of Big Sur, where the landscape shaped their art.

photo by Jessica Dofflemyer
photo by Jessica Dofflemyer

Looking forward to the time in six weeks when I’ll be reunited with this magical coastline, I poked around at some of my own photos from when I was there last winter.

On an isolated stretch of beach, I meandered with my new love picking a few special stones along the way.  When we ascended the bluff, we looked down and photographed our footsteps that wove apart and then together.  So smitten we were with our blossoming connection, every detail had significance.   Warm heart flutters and butterflies mingled with tangerines and chocolate in the salt air.  My pocket full of stones eventually made it into a special box, bought at the Phoenix Shop at Nepenthe, specifically to house them.

I still have the stones.  And I’ll return to Big Sur soon.  But pathways have crossroads and sometimes we diverge (I now note in the photo our steps fall far apart).  Waves come and sweep the sands.  They shape and smooth the rocks.

With Baer and Jeffers I’m reminded that the art remains – words and photographs capture the essence of a feeling.  The love of a land and the experiences lived there.  These gifts are alive forever in our hearts.

October 15, 2010

While this morning’s coffee percolates, I come to the butcher block to write last night’s dreams on the page. Here in the scattered gecko poop, dusty gemstones and papery peels of old garlic cloves the details filter through my pen.

Two young girls are hospitalized while in my care due to dehydration. I tossed myself awake and thought “must remember tomorrow to tell coach at soccer camp to make sure Jeb is getting enough water!”

Then back to sleep where I found myself in a new town with a lover from my past. There’s a restaurant down the street and I’m excited to go with him. I’m inspired to get dressed up: nice shoes, stockings and a skirt. I keep trying to find the right clothes to wear. One green crocheted shirt in my bag with sparkled beads reveals a salsa stain in the lower corner. Can’t seem to get the stockings to fit just right.

Lover from the past is hedging while I sift through my suitcase. He’s feeling too much between us, not sure we should even dine together. He considers saying goodbye and leaving me there in a pile of ill-fitting, mismatched garments.

Coffee’s ready now and the dreams are in the archive. I observe my dull headache and wonder if I’m the one that’s dehydrated.

 

water is life - photo by Jessica Dofflemyer