
Let Yourself Be Held


15,000 miles traversed by air. Three state lines crossed. Sleep through four time zones.
When back in familiar territory, nothing is routine.
Poetry still comes in the pillows, but now the roosters are awake, the sun closer to the horizon.
Words have less time, so they come in simply.
Appreciation for the slightest ease seems to smooth the days.
The way the bagel toasts golden. Cream cheese spreading in one, thick swipe.
The fresh fold of his t-shirt, the laundered creases emitting ordered readiness.
His nine-year old hand, reaching out in morning darkness. Growing fingertips pulling me closer to his dreamtime. The smell of shampoo on his hair.
We are the first at the bus stop, where a foot-long rat runs across a dewy lawn. The sky pinkens into a Wednesday.
There will be homework, a volunteer sign-up sheet, the appointment for the oil change, and still, that decision on the health insurance plan.
But today there is ease in simple things. A boy – my boy – pulls his backpack from the passenger side. And even though his friends linger by the bus stop bench nearby, he reaches over. Hugs me and says, “I love you.”

the mosquito buzzes
close to your ear
its high
strained
whine
a warning
that soon
there will be a landing
a tapping
for your blood
milk
has been put on the grocery list
October’s calendar marked
for costume shopping
and zombie make-up
for your son
tomorrow’s lunch
is in tupperware
for your husband
you finally RSVP’d
to the party
and the dog
well, he’s by your side
as usual
napping like a cat
but ready to follow
in an instant
tail a-wag
and anxious
for the next exciting thing
with any movement made
from your chair
you are not sleeping
but not fully
awake
and dreams are distant
from where you sit
this morning
you know
you are no
zombie
and blood-suckers
are swooshed away
yes
you are
in costume
you
artist
dreamer
stardusted traveler
all dressed up
like a citizen
a mother
a wife
