October 23, 2010

photo by Jessica Dofflemyer

I’m back under the moon with the fire.  This time it’s Hanalei Bay, no wind, small surf.  Spotlight in the sky illumines smiles and the musicians.

I’m just on the periphery, tapping a knee, leaving the strings and chord progressions to the players.  There is the jazz musician, the songwriter – and the bagpipe player is here again with the low whistle and effortless melodies.

I try to watch their finger placements, see if I can recognize a chord with my eyes.  The ever-encouraging songwriter sees my interest and invites me in.  Three guitars?  No, no, I’m OKI’m loving listening.

But he doesn’t believe my words and hands me his Martin.  Goes back to his truck for another guitar, returns and tells me the chords so I can join them.

For the rest of the night I play with the musicians.  Fumble through and let my fingers ache.  I don’t mention that it’s been 10 years since I played with anyone.  That the few chords I know I taught myself from Neil Young‘s Decade songbook.  (Though these points were fairly apparent.)

This kind circle isn’t much for disclaimers.  The words are saved for other things.  The speed of sound and the vibration at which a note is moving.  How the relation of the fret board corresponds to every planet in our solar system.  The B-flat note that ripples out from the Black Hole.  How about that time in Olympia when Phish told the audience they were going to try to make their instruments emanate light waves through the speakers? Have you heard of Alexander Scriabin the mystic musician?

If there is a tribe of music lovers, these are its members.  I am with my people, though a humble initiate to the fold.  The jazz musician moves his hands along the neck of his guitar with graceful ease, ringing notes to the sea air in perfect harmony.

I could stay here in these sounds all night.

What you are comes to you.
–  Ralph Waldo Emerson

In love’s godlike breathing, there’s the innermost aspect of the universe.
Alexander Scriabin

October 9, 2010

For a special Saturday morning treat my son, Jeb, and I buy donuts and eat them in the park.  I buy him his first surfing magazine at the check out counter and we look at big waves – “oh…look, he’s in the tube!” – while eating maple glazed pastries.  Sugared up, Jeb wants to run the training course and swing really high.

Back home, we try playing Neil Young‘s “Razor Love” together.  I’m strumming the guitar his dad brought back from India and Jeb sounds great with the harmonica and shaker.

jade and garnet on waxed linen - photo by Jessica Dofflemyer

I’m still obsessing on jade and spent part of the morning stringing beads on to waxed linen.  I ponder over the coincidence that we saw a toddler named Jade at the playground on the swing set.

There is no point to me making a necklace but it feels good and I don’t want to stop.  A line from what I think is a poem by Rumi comes to mind – something about following a thread.  But after searching through old journal entries and online queries, I realize that I’m thinking of William Stafford‘s poetry.

The Way it Is

There’s a thread you follow. It goes among
things that change.  But it doesn’t change.
People wonder about what you are pursuing.
You have to explain about the thread.
But it is hard for others to see.
While you hold it you can’t get lost.
Tragedies happen; people get hurt
or die; and you suffer and get old.
Nothing you do can stop time’s unfolding.
You don’t ever let go of the thread.

Something’s changing.  I don’t know exactly where I’m going but I’m following the thread.