Letting the Soft Love What it Loves

The moon rounds to fullness, which is why, perhaps, I’m roused at 3am.

I am fine to find myself wrapped in the warmth of jersey sheets, my husband sleeping next to me, my own eyes open in the dark.

It’s time to read Mary Oliver. This is the whisper heard upon my waking.

So by 3:11, I’m barefoot with a cardigan in the kitchen. Making coffee and lighting patchouli incense in the stove top flame.

A line of fragrant smoke streams, coffee cup steams, and laptop computer keys are traced by fingers following a thread.

I find Wild Geese. High and soaring.

Feel the soft animal of my body, so close and tender.

Such relief to find myself just nestled. Letting in the sweet space.

Loving what I love.

 
Wild Geese

You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
For a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting —
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

~ Mary Oliver ~

photo courtesy of Sean Roger's1
photo courtesy of Sean Roger’s1

I Just Didn’t Wake Early Enough

Yesterday may have had that 2:47am magic of quiet stillness, but this morning I’ve slept in, and now this mother has fifteen minutes of writing time before bus-stop-drop-off prep ensues.

It’s still dark, the coffee is warm, and the sound of swishing cars move at a working pace, already, down the road.

Our house still soaks in sleep. I sit at my desk by computer screen light, surrounded: the school’s Jog-a-thon donation envelope, tickets (to be sold) for the pancake breakfast, National Geographic’s family subscription offer, and a book by the Dalai Lama on the power of patience.

This morning I don’t have photographs to post. No poems.

I am not unhappy. Not uninspired. Just not rubbing elbows with the Muse this morning. Chores sidle up instead.

Today will be an art in getting Jeb to the bus stop with ease. A dance of remembering that I’m an Earthling Cling-on, lucky to be breathing, while I auto-sum spreadsheets, empty the compost, drive my little car.

I guess everyday is a humble offering in expression, here. In life. Today just feels more mundane.

I’m diving in, though, on the hunch that perhaps it’s all that much more profound.

Circumference of Silence

at 2:47am
silence
gifts
reprieve

though
stillness
has its own
small
sounds
that surround
the space
create

the quiet

the orchestrated layers
of steady
cricket wings
in grass

a distant rooster
yearning
in the trees

the muffled
foam
of surf
a mile
away

the Bohemian
breathing
sleep
near
my ear

here
the slightest
soundless
breeze
lifts
the curtain

one lone car
passes
on the road

these
subtle sounds
all shaping
quiet

photo courtesy of vivekrajkanhangad
photo courtesy of vivekrajkanhangad