Moments between bagging three month’s worth of recycling and hauling it to the transfer station. Time after I pulled out boxes and steamed-cleaned floors, trying to trace the scent of a dead animal in the closet (never found it).
There were windows with Radiohead, alone in the car. Walking out of the art supply store with a fresh journal. Opening the post office box to find a check. Spraying countertops clean with the scent of lavender. Pouring water into a new filtered pitcher. Making popcorn with melted butter and Hawaiian salt.
In the late afternoon, Jeb and I pick 80 Ti leaves so he can make his Hawaiian skirt for the school graduation ceremony.
“We need more! They’re going to be able to see through it!”
By day’s end, I’m exhausted but organized. Anticipating Monday but dedicated to the moment. We take an evening stroll. We walk slowly and choose the long way.
Sometimes he’ll hold my hand. Sometimes he’ll practice cartwheels on the grass. Sometimes he’ll hang on me like a jungle gym and drive me nuts. I have to remind him that’s he’s big now, three-fourths my size.
Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reserved
On the way back home he gets ahead of me. It’s ok now, these days, for him to be a bit on his own. He beats me to the house. I arrive at the front door as he opens it from inside, a red ginger flower outstretched in his hand. It’s the third flower he’s picked for me today. I put it in an old glass honey jar.
The water pipes are still dry
so you go for tequila
bring a bowl and band aids
to your friend’s house
where you’ll soak the screw wound
in your sole
and sip a cocktail at sunset
you finally are ready to bring those boots outside
you’ll pat your soaked foot dry
apply the ointment
adhere the bandage
slip on a sock
and zip up that foot
into the leather boots
that have been sitting
waiting
by your travel books
now these boots are climbing
stairs to the top of the Ficus
a treehouse in the clouds
you clink glasses with friends
in pinkening skies
eat beans and beets just picked from the garden
get swooped by a flock of 30 dainty birds
all one mind
in speedy flight
used to tree tops
but not to humans in them
you don’t want serenity prayers
or downward dog poses
but you’ll try
to accept
to embrace your Dark Side
to breathe like Darth Vader
and after an hour
ok
you do feel better
And through some alignment with the Force
when you return home
the pump is primed
water is flowing
and you are in love with liquid
singing praises
and committing
life-long devotion to the element of water
by nightfall it’s time for poetry
courtesy of wanathan101
last night you were in treetop branches
with sunset clouds
tonight you are flush with the grass
poets circle a fire in starlight
and you stretch
beneath the Gardenias
soles warmed by flames
smoke circling to sky
sparks catch air in quick bursts
punctuating poetry
that spills from the mouths of your neighbors
words and flickers
stars and flowers
the smell of smoke in your hair
upon this earthen body
you and the poets spiral through space
resting on the surface
just above the treasure
layers and deep veins
hold the seeping springs of liquid love
the elemental elixir
you are prostrate
a devotee
giving thanks at the well
quenched
by the flow
of words
and water
It is quiet here but for the ocean waves at the cliffs nearby. Rain drops trickle in the water lilies outside the window.
Yesterday I came home from work imagining the luxury of a 20 minute afternoon cat nap. Instead my street was flooded with water and I learned that my house had none. There’s a fear the water in my neighborhood may be contaminated. No one should drink from the tap.
Oh, the things we rely upon and often take for granted. Like clean, running water! Instead of slumber, I spent my afternoon packing. I was grateful that my friends had an empty house, as they were on a rare, one-night camping trip. I focused on my thankfulness that I had a haven available with hot running water, just down the road.
I packed light with hopes that all would be back to normal at my place within 24 hours. The mental list of all requirements flooding my mind in a muck.
Bring food for breakfast and a school lunch. Oh, I’m supposed to supply produce for Jeb’s contribution to the school’s farmer’s market. What are we bringing? He’s got that sleep over on Saturday…I’m supposed to call them back with a time. That cough of his isn’t going away. Do I make a doctor’s appointment? Ah, and the dentist. I’m supposed to call to reschedule teeth cleaning for both of us. That’s $100 each…when will we fit those into our schedule? Can I afford that right now? Teeth are important…gosh, I’m afraid he doesn’t floss enough…I’ll call them back…And that meeting I have with that potential new client…ok, that’s tomorrow. But now my timing’s all off because I’m not going to be home…should I cancel? What if the water is not back on by tomorrow? You know that neighbor said that he thinks the situation could take weeks to resolve. Where would we stay? And did I take that flower essence enough times today? It’s supposed to calm me and heal my ovary. Am I calm? I think I’m pretty calm despite these circumstances. I’m supposed to be practicing that Inner Smile meditation for my womb. Can I really dissolve this cyst? What’s it all about anyway? I can’t think about it now. But then when will I give it attention? Am I giving it enough focus? Too much? Can I handle all of this flux and still maintain the Archives? Can I still make it to yoga practice tomorrow? Ok, what time is it? I have to go pick up Jeb.
All of these thoughts pool and eddy into this mother head of mine as I unload gear from the car and walk it into my friends’ empty house. I am barefoot, moving through grass, when suddenly a sharp pain jolts all mental chatter. I lift my foot to see a metal screw dangling from my sole. Fairly bright and new – not rusty – I pull it from my foot and give thanks I’m near hot water. I doctor my injury (try to remember the last time I had a tetanus shot – I think 10 years ago before India. That’s pushing it, I know) and take a deep breath. I ponder this misstep. I rarely hurt myself. What’s going on? Maybe I’m just displaced and ruffled.
Well, that was yesterday. Now, it is a new day. Morning in low light with pen and paper. My foot is clean, dry and protected. I’m still here at the Archives. My friends’ house is so rural, there is no internet. I know at some point today I’ll find a way to get this post online. These rambling words sourced from the dark time before sunlight in a different house. A new locale.
Soon, I’ll be bagging lychee for the farmer’s market. Cleaning up traces of our overnight reprieve. Readying myself for another morning of practice at the yoga studio. Yes, I think I’ll make it.
I see that I can move through life with so many assumptions. Like something as elemental as access to running water. Then, suddenly, circumstance can turn things upside down. Nothing is guaranteed. In that free fall, I’m left to seek what’s most fundamental. Appreciation seeps for things like a bed to sleep in. The gift of a hot shower.
My little life curveball here, is temporary. I’ll have water again. This shut down can offer opportunity. A new way to start my day.
Pen and ink and different shadows. Distant waves sounding. Roosters crowing in the quiet. The trickle of water droplets falling from the roof.
Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reserved
Soaking in this magic hour, I do not know what this day will reveal. But I’m trusting that I can move through it – one breath at a time.
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