The Tone of One Drone

I wake to a stream of light through the window.  A curved bowl hangs, shining, holding golden liquid that streams down in a beam onto my floor.  The moon wanes and rests mid-sky.

I force myself to wake – it must be time to write – then realize it’s only 3:19am.  I can’t go back to sleep.  In the dark of my room, I watch a video of Chinese doctors chanting over a woman with cancer. They show the tumor on an ultrasound screen dissolving in less than three minutes.  They say it’s not a miracle but a tool.  This power of intent.  This feeling in the heart.  To feel that she is well has made it so.

By 4:30am I’m back to sleep and dreaming of poetry.

At 7am I wake to dusky purple light.  It’s been a long time since I’ve slept till sunrise.  I hear the bullfrog at the stream.  He seems to have one simple drone, free of having to decide how to express.

What if there were just one tone that I was given?  I could stick with that, let go of mind, and just move my song to calm and trance.  No doubt and never wonder.

photo by Jessica Dofflemyer - all rights reserved - Big Sur Sprit Garden

But I’m human, and I wonder
Would I really like a single key?

October 16, 2010

photo by Jessica Dofflemyer

 

drop off Jeb at the mermaid’s house
tucked in the princess flowers
nestled from the bay
at the foot of the mountains
he’s left with the naturopathic doctor
to play truth or dare by the bon fire
have a night time swim in the sea

me, I go alone
under the stars
to the small group gathered
with the Iranian healer
born in Canada
he lives in Costa Rica
and is here at the farm of flying flowers

I come with an open heart
hope to loosen the tight in my chest
he calls me forward
wraps his arms around me
and meets me heart to heart

I feel the love
touch my own blocked walls
gently fall backwards into trusted arms
and am laid upon my blanket

breath, grief, gratitude, tears
crickets sing in unison in October grass
my written words
communication
the reason that I walk this earth
a sharing
the Magdalene
my growing son
a promise
to an open heart

it is all a mystery
an experience that can’t be named
mind tries
like here and now
to tell of the touching
my truest essence
that familiar thread
of home