In Disguise

the mosquito buzzes
close to your ear
its high
strained
whine
a warning
that soon
there will be a landing
a tapping
for your blood

milk
has been put on the grocery list
October’s calendar marked
for costume shopping
and zombie make-up
for your son
tomorrow’s lunch
is in tupperware
for your husband
you finally RSVP’d
to the party
and the dog
well, he’s by your side
as usual
napping like a cat
but ready to follow
in an instant
tail a-wag
and anxious
for the next exciting thing
with any movement made
from your chair

you are not sleeping
but not fully
awake
and dreams are distant
from where you sit
this morning

you know
you are no
zombie
and blood-suckers
are swooshed away
yes
you are
in costume
you
artist
dreamer
stardusted traveler
all dressed up
like a citizen
a mother
a wife

courtesy of Nicki Varkevisser
courtesy of Nicki Varkevisser

October 31, 2010

Jeb and I got a last minute invitation to join our neighbors for Halloween dinner.  Instead of wandering the wild streets of town with mobs seeking to fill their candy bags, we nestled in for the company of good friends.

After dark, an impromptu trick or treat expedition of our own took place on our neighbor’s property.  Fruit leathers instead of chocolate along with Japanese candies were doled out by a Captain Kangaroo character under the lemon tree.  Spooky, real-life tales were shared about a “Kung Fu rat” that once jumped out of a closet and landed on a friend’s shoulder.

At the end of the evening, Jeb and I walked back home together without a flashlight.  The moon was no where in sight.  Jeb walked closely by  my side, very quiet and keeping in exact step with me.  In one stretch of our path we walked through a covering of trees, which made it very dark.  Slowly, step by step, we emerged onto our empty one lane street, a bit lighter with all of the stars shining above us.  Everything was silent but for the crickets and the rumbling surf that crashed on the cliffs about a mile away from us.

Sometimes I get spooked in the dark.  But tonight there was no fear.  And I wanted Jeb to walk beside me and feel that certainty.  The confidence in knowing that we can walk through the dark – sometimes without a light – and we’ll be Ok.  In fact, in these moments of heightened awareness and trust, there’s often something magical to be discovered.