Diary of a Sleepy Woman

The coffee grinder is with me behind closed doors of the bathroom at 3am. It whirs in a muffled grind beneath the padding of a thick bath towel. I guess this is what you call considerate insomnia, as my occasional real-early rises occur, now, within the presence of another. On this particular morning, the Bohemian rests soundly and Jeb is crashed out on the couch, nearby.

I should be sleeping and replenishing my reserves. It’s been a week of caring for Jeb in a second wave of sickness – this time the flu, with a full night of off-and-on vomiting. While monitoring his temperature and forcing fluids, I’ve juggled work schedules, washed sheets and made dinner. No, I did not make it to posting to the Archives yesterday. But I did capture a centipede that slithered next to Jeb’s bed, leaving the Bohemian to simply stare, empty dustpan in his hands, as I quickly disposed of it (with blessings). (Centipedes outside, I come in peace. Centipedes inside, by the bed of my sick son, not welcome).

Tiring as this may be, I’m not alone in my labors of love. And this is something new. The Bohemian is a constant, continually keeping the kitchen sink empty. Loads of clean laundry I dump from the basket magically transform to neat piles (my underwear has never been folded so neatly before). When he’s not taking out the compost or sweeping the kitchen floor, the Bohemian’s in our back yard pruning. I look up from my work through the window, to see him staring in at me from the top of the kukui nut tree, wielding a hand saw and fat grin. He’s opening the view.

Yes, I am surrounded by new sights, fresh viewpoints, expanded perspectives.

I’m recalling the day I gifted him a toothbrush to keep at my house. This evolved to the offer of half a drawer for two sarongs and t-shirt. Now, he’s got four drawers and we hang 13 of his shirts in the closet. The sight is surprisingly strange, but I like it – yes, those are men’s clothes hanging next to mine.

After a full and long day, we sigh and find ourselves face to face in the kitchen. He’s been digging holes and making electrical repairs. I’ve been up since 1am with vomit and centipedes. We’re smiling but I’m wondering if this free-spirited soul I met on the beach may be having second thoughts about all this domesticity.

Before I can consider it further, Jeb enters with Diary of a Wimpy Kid: The Last Straw, requesting the Bohemian read aloud. The man is surely tired. One would understand that he may not be in the mood to delve into reading a children’s story right now. Especially, since English is a second language – one that he’s learned completely by sound, not sight. But ever-amazing, he agrees to read the passage Jeb indicates – the one where Greg wants to make a good impression on the girl he likes at the school dance, but his friend intercedes and ruins the moment.

The Bohemian reads each word carefully. He’s patient as he trips through a few phrases. With the tables turned, Jeb can occasionally tell him how to sound it out. He reads not one, but at least ten pages, laughs and says, “This is a good book.”

Dinner is bubbling in the oven. Jeb is on the rug, listening with a smile. The Bohemian is standing in the kitchen slowly reading with sweet intent. Greg’s mom is trying to herd the Heffley family to an Easter Sunday service. I’m finally sitting down for the first time all day.

I don’t’ know where  this tale is going (ours, that is, – and, of course, how could I?) Certainly, at times I’m afraid of sudden turns in the plot. But for now, in this simple moment in the kitchen with Jeb, the Bohemian and the voice of Greg Heffley ala a thick Czech accent, I’d say that I’m liking this story.

Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reserved

Tax Talk and Lace Underwear

I told him that we may want
to keep it romantic
all this family stuff
seemed to take
even the best ones down
my fear
that once he was really in
there’d be more chores
less
candlelight

and now
he’s in
at 5:55am
the kitchen, that is
where we’re whispering
the sweet somethings
the practicals
Jeb’s fever that woke him in the night
strep throat symptoms
and general excise taxes

this morning
before sunrise
it’s the takeover
from sexy
to sickness
schedules

at least I’m aware
standing there
in nothing
but my Ganesha t shirt
and Victoria’s Secret
underwear
that something here
has changed

our meeting adjourned
he’ll trim his beard in the bathroom
I’ll come to write poetry
while Jeb still sleeps
the sun’s rising
soon
there’ll be
wet wash cloths to wring
a thermometer to monitor
coordination of
work and dinner

and then
he says
“come see the sky!”
we step out onto the balcony
whack webs away
to see
pink clouds
hear the birds
gaze upon
the sliver that’s left
of the moon

 

Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reserved

 

Piecing Shards

He was the one that even suggested
I try to glue it back
I thought I’d be making something new
some abstract mosaic
from the wreckage

I’d failed the matriarchs
my grandmother
her mother
the dishes passed down
a few just didn’t make it still intact
in their journey across the Pacific

He says it’s not my fault
I packed them well
those guys
they just throw the boxes around
don’t really care

And now
he’s slipped the glue out of my hands
has casually overtaken
the piece-together project
I gladly surrender
to his desire
to match the seams
perfectly
which is hard
when hundred-year old pottery
goes to shards

I love his exacting efforts
celebrate with him
each piece
one by one
as they stay in place
leaving us with only
a pile of thin shreds
millimeter shavings
of color
he tries to match
to the dish surface

toothpick in hand
he gently edges them
minute fractions
nano scale proportions
“ahh! I got another one!”

when we are left
to nearly dust
we reach our stopping point
he considers ways to treat the surface
so you can’t see the cracks

It’s ok
I tell him
let’s not try to hide them
I don’t know the tales of this bowl before me
but I know it has a story now
how after a trip across the ocean
they got shaken
but the ever-diligent Czech
pieced it together
with a smile

This bowl’s going to hold
hands of bananas
overflow with lilikoi and limes
live now
at our table

 

Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reserved