A Thousand Words

I’m notified that the final manuscript has been compiled and “unfortunately, the committee did not select your submission.”

I’ve written about this submission process before. The experience of offering up my writing for publication outside these Archive realms. How I can turn “rejection letters” into confirmations that I’m on the writer’s path. These “best of luck” responses are merely markers on the trail that prove I am writing…and submitting.

So this most recent “thank you, but no thank you” communication arrives yesterday. But there’s a twist in this submission plot. A slight re-write of the script.

They want my photos. All of what I sent.

Not only was this anthology seeking writing, they were also asking for photographs. After combing through every comma of my written pieces, I casually changed color photos to black and white to fit their format. Gave them each a simple name and attached them to my emailed submission. They were like the garnish on the plate of the entrée. A side note.

I guess they liked them. Or with all of these writers sending in their words, they were short on images and needed anything they could get. It really doesn’t matter why. I’m honored to be included in this publication, in whatever medium my artistic expression is received.

So the storyline has shifted. Submission accepted. This is new. And curious, as the pieces received were not quite what I had envisioned. Whoever is writing this script, I like the surprise tactic. An intriguing plot. You might say they’ve got me.

As I’ve been contemplating the measure of words – how much, how little – this small nod to the power of the photo gets my attention.

Perhaps I’ll stop the alphabet here. You know what they say a picture’s worth.

Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reserved
Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reserved
Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reserved
Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reserved

Reeling In

In the filling moon’s light, inner tides churn with dramatic ebbs and flows. Yesterday words bubbled, curled and crashed in waves, presenting three posts to the Archives. Whoa. That’s a first.

It goes like this, I’ll tell you.

A rush of inspiration to dig deep to the root of feeling, then share it with as much candor as I can. The Publish button clicked, my words echoing out into the world.

It’s only later – maybe I’m driving in the car – that all those syllables seem like scattered sea spray. Or seeds caught on a sudden gust of wind. Copious and aimless, it all will feel too much of me. And so will go the inner recanting. I become the fisherman reeling in the line. I want to make a U-turn to the inside, go silent.

If I’m living yes and no, walking a tideline that shifts in dramatic highs and lows, where is the center where I can steady? Is it in words or silence? Or in some space between?

Whether casting lines or reeling in, my heart seems to stay stitched on my sleeve. courtesy of EraPhernalia Vintage

And case in point, I wasn’t going to tell you this. But it arises like a surge of a rogue wave.

About the heart. The one inside. The one he listened to with his ear against my chest when we first met. “It sounds like a little bell.”

Last night he says the beat has changed. “It sounds different. It’s deeper, more full. There’s more life in it now. Not like that little bell before.”

See, I was going to be silent about the swells that move these inner beats. The pumping of a sweetness found with a man who will listen to my heart beat and tell me what he hears.

That’s the casting.

Now I’m reeling in.

Keep Up

Though I know I don’t have to explain myself, I realize that I’ve been absent from the Archives these past few days (and this morning you get the triple-post-catch-up).

Dedicated to posting daily, where on earth have I been?

Well, I’ve been laughing at my continually strange fortunes. The Yogi tea bag holding a quote for me: “Keep up”.

How come when we drink tea together the Bohemian always gets some better saying in his mug? The enlightened messages. Ones like “You are the light of love” or some other divine pronouncement.

He laughs at my ‘keep up’ message and asks, “Didn’t you get that one last time?”

Pfft.

If keeping up is noticing, then I am following my tea bag orders.

He may think I didn’t see, but I was aware when he slipped downstairs to quietly water my withering houseplant.

Long after he’d gone home, I noticed the blankets on my couch and chair were folded in new ways.

The broom, it was leaning against a wall in a fresh corner.

I found some pots put away in different drawers.

His trace remains. Small things get rearranged.

Keeping up, I don’t want to change them back.