Snakes, Owls and Waking Dreams

Along the spine of Dry Creek road, soft foothills have watched me grow for a lifetime.  At least once a year I return to this place to see my family and let Jeb roam the creekbed where I once swam in summer.

Occasionally this place of my family roots makes its way into the landscape of my dreams.  About a week ago I dreamt that I was walking along Dry Creek with Jeb at my side.  Though the area rarely sees a sprinkling of snow dust, in my dream the ground was thick in a blanket of snow.  We approached a curve in the road, the place where the asphalt cuts through a small hill.  To the left a sacred fire was burning low in the soft whiteness.  Smoke billowed up to an alter of a few animals.  It was understood this was a ceremony conducted by a Native, a shaman, a medicine man, though no one was in sight.

This afternoon I’m back on Dry Creek, Jeb and I driving along the road – no snow – just golden hills with winter green grass beginning to peek from beneath tufts of brown.  Suddenly I notice the shape of a snake in the road, unusual for this cold time of year when snakes usually hibernate.  Intrigued, I pull over and Jeb and I begin to walk the road.  As we approach, I realize I am traveling the path of my dream.  Jeb by my side, the exact spot, right at the curve.

Here we see the long shape of a gopher snake, clearly deceased, with the story of its demise marked along its back.  Jeb’s first sighting of a snake in real life, this close.

photo by Jessica Dofflemyer

Later, I enjoy sharing my snapshots of the snake with family, all of them agreeing it is odd to see one this late in the year.  I ponder the symbols:  dreams of snow, a sacred ceremony connected to the land, a curve in the road, a snake out of season, shedding of skin…

Long after dark Jeb and I are once again driving back the way we had come.  We wonder if a hawk or other bird may have come along and taken our snake friend for a meal.  With our headlights blazing, we slow at the curve in the road and discover the long thin body glowing in our brights – the snake is still there.  Leaning forward towards the windshield, we gaze then pass it slowly.  As if on cue, the bright white underbelly of an owl swoops just above our car in the dark sky.  It hovers in flight, flapping wild wings alongside us in some kind of mystical, night time omen.

photo courtesy of Dry Crik Journal

What any of it means, I do not know.  A cluster of wildlife sightings all in one bend in the road – dreaming and waking.

What would the Natives say?  The zoologist?  The poet?

Jeb says, “Cool!”

I’d say the same.

 

All Good Things…

I try to squeeze a moment of writing in this morning before the pancakes, vitamin C and bed making.  Jeb’s home from school all this week.

We pulled the suitcases out of storage yesterday and cut the airline luggage tags off the bags from last year’s delayed flight.

Friends tease me that I pack two weeks ahead of time.  I don’t want to forget anything.  I hate to wait to the last minute.

I scan random lists I have scrawled, all the things that need to be done before we leave.  Items to take, people to call, mail to hold, bills to pay.

I’m not complaining.  This trip is the beacon of light at the end of my tunnel.  Each year I get to exit my remote little paradise and change the scenery.  Take a pause and turn Jeb over to a new tribe – my blood family.  I sit back and breathe.  Smile and watch him from a distance with new eyes.  Fall in love with him all over again.

And quietly I’ll slip away, alone, to the coastal forest and sink into the wealth of my own deep well.  I will languish in the space of simply being.  Make no promises except to breathe.  I’ll sit in steaming water and let hours pass.  Move in slow motion.  Feel my footsteps in new ways.  Remember myself again.

With this light beaming in the near but distant future, I remind myself to stay present.  Breathe deeply now.  It’s morning and Jeb and I can start the day with a walk in the thick dew.

There is no rush.