Jewels of Wind and Sun

There’s nothing mystical happening here.

I’m waiting in bumper to bumper traffic, crawling and stopping, merging and signaling.  Patience is the only virtue in this line of cars and there is nothing to do but idle while the economy bag of organic frozen blackberries beads liquid among my groceries in the backseat.

I don’t want to wait for invitations to transcend.  With all these chores, a moment of profundity doesn’t seem to fit anywhere with Costco or gas stations or credit card bills.  What’s enlightening about being stalled out with end-of-the day traffic congestion?  Yet, I let the Chevrolet emblem that I have been staring at on the car in front of me, transform into a key attempting to unlock my perception.  Subtly, the buildings on both sides of the street come into sharper focus.  The sign for the Wahoo restaurant bears a giant Hawaiian fish-hook, waiting.  The wall of Boss Frog’s surf rental shop is adorned with a hand-painted sea goddess, beckoning.  A man in a lime green sweatshirt crosses the street on the light.  The red turn signal on the Toyota truck flashes in jeweled dimensions.

With a simple willingness, can I perceive this scene more totally?  Can I become more aware – awake – as I hold the steering wheel, inching past McDonald’s on my left?

Eventually, the bottle neck uncorks and traffic begins to flow again.  That driver’s window of mine is now fixed and I can roll it down and feel the wind.  Afternoon sun streams from behind Anahola’s majestic mountain and mingles with strands of my hair that catch the draft and swirl above the highway.  Susheela Raman has been chosen by the Cosmic DJ in the iPod shuffle.  The music features the ancient sound of tablas that tap my heart.  Harken India.  Move me to places beyond space and time.  To realms I do not understand, only feel.

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Window down, wind rushing, sun shining, Susheela singing.

Never mind that the day’s work is not quite finished and there is still a meal to make.  That the ultra-sound results weren’t what I hoped for.  That my boot-inspired fantasy of travel may not turn out the way I imagined.  Jeb will need help with homework.  My solo mothering journey shows no end in sight.  And at day’s end I will say good night to a full moon – alone – for at least the 50th time.  In the morning there will still be bills to pay.

Never mind all that.

This precious moment with sound and wind and sun is the iridescent jewel.  The inner reaches of my heart aligned with this exacting instant – this is mine.  The greatest gift.  Ever-available to be received.  Experienced.  Felt.  Lived.

I say, yes and thank you.  Dance it for as long as I am able.

Sonic Elixir

Mary Poppins sang about a spoonful of sugar helping the medicine go down.  For me, music is the medicine and the sweetness is that wordless place where vibration rings from a guitar string straight to my heart.

Oh, how I love words.  But the mind grows tired sometimes and there is nothing like a little pause on the mental wheels.

With music, just a few sonic notes can resonate through the air and ripple through to raise the hair on the back of your neck.  Reverberate through your core.  Unlock the front door to your most sacred dwelling with one chord change, leaving words to stammer on the doorstep still riddling the password.

Stop.  It’s time to listen.  Let the hearing feel.  Maybe move.  Or just be stilled.

It’s a sonic elixir. A sweet nectar.  Music is the way to remind me I’m alive.

Celebrating this love of music, I host a radio program, “Music as Medicine,” every other Monday on Kauai Community Radio.  The show has its own blog here in WordPress (see left sidebar) and I’ve just posted the playlist from this week’s program.

Inspired by an influx of new music, Music as Medicine’s latest post features a new track from Alexi Murdoch,

courtesy of http://www.aleximurdoch.com

a live recording of The Head and the Heart at KEXP and a video of Alela Diane at home in Portland, OR.

Lately, it’s the Archives, here, that seem to get my greatest attention.  But this morning I’m reminded…you can’t forget the music.  It’s the soundtrack in the background behind all of these wild, running thoughts.  Songs that weave together all of these stories.  The spoonful of sweetness that brings the flavor to the moment – rich and delicious.

courtesy of http://www.aleladiane.com

Wolf Whistles, Oysters and the Red Carpet Treatment

Maybe the world is always our oyster but some days feel like you’ve been granted the secret password needed to reveal its inlaid treasure.  Lately, for me, not only has the oyster been gently opening at the hinges, by golly, it’s got two pearls inside!

If I’d been suspecting that I was right there in the pocket – feeling tight, life and I – then all was confirmed at the Department of Motor Vehicles on Friday.  Rock star parking led right to an empty line inside.  Within five minutes I had paid my annual registration and was back out in the tropical sunshine, moving forward with the day.

More mundane tasks ensued with efficiency and ease.  Costco mission complete in twenty minutes (they opened up a register just for me!).  Ultrasound appointment done in no time (they won’t tell you a thing of what they see) by a big and beautiful African woman who hummed a sweet song while taking pictures of my womb.  I was crossing off my to-do list efficiently, swift like an arrow on course through the maze of downtown.  My iPod was on shuffle, the soundtrack of life in my ears.  John Mayer singing “The Heart of Life is Good,” and it was easy to concur.

Back home in cyberspace my email Inbox reveals more cosmic winks.  For those of you following the Archives, remember those boot advertisements in the side bar of my email screen?  These days they’ve changed.  They’ve been replaced by airfare promotions now.  First stop?  Vegas.  Perhaps I’m on a winning streak that’s worth a gamble.

The ultimate affirmation comes at day’s end, straight from Nature, when I stepped out my front door and my friend, the White-Rumped Shama gave a wolf whistle from his nearby perch.  I’ve heard plenty of his songs, but I’ve never heard that one from him before.  You know the call.  That emotive sound of approval perfected by crass construction workers.  I’ll post the sample here (click ‘wolf whistle‘), but it can’t compare to the melodious beauty of hearing those notes flow from the throat of a songbird.

I know I mentioned the other day in my Sunrise Reserves in the Kimono that life doesn’t roll out the red carpet.  That we must carve it out ourselves.  But maybe that’s not always true.  There are times when we can ease into some sweet spot.  Find some perfect groove where Providence has roped off our course, allowing for easy entry.

courtesy of Tomomarusan

I’m following that unfurling crimson runner toward the rare, double-pearled oyster, while birds whistle affirmation in my wake.  No need to question.  Just be grateful, stay open and say yes.