Magic Carpet

Throughout history humans have desired to elevate their gravity-weighted frames. Transport themselves across spaces. Be like birds.

Long before airplanes and hot air balloons, the magic carpet provided a comfy seat in which legendary nomads could glide the skies.

art by Viktor Vasnetsov

What was that essence of the rug that made it able to defy the laws of physics? Was it about the intricate weave in which the artisan painstakingly looped for days, weeks, years? Was there a power in the patterned story told by thousands of threads? Did that tale give life to an otherwise inanimate object? Give a force so great, through a tradition so long-held, that it simply carried those adventurers via magical flight?

I definitely believe in magic. Though in my case, my grandmother’s carpet traveled thousands of miles through the traditional route – I think…

Boxed, taped and stamped with Delivery Confirmation, it drove as cargo via the US Postal Service to a dock in California where it was to be put on a boat to sail to my little island. With the assistance of modern technology, it was supposed to be able to be tracked along its journey via the internet, trailing each outpost where it stopped, until it finally moved out to sea.

Somewhere in transit it fell off the radar. No tracking information was available and the carpet seemed to have simply vanished. Maybe it was as rebellious as some of my family members. Perhaps it just gave Big Brother the slip. Weeks and weeks went by with no trace of its whereabouts.

And then yesterday it materialized. It now graces the space by my writing desk.

Since my grandmother has passed, the story of this carpet I found in her basement eludes me. There’s something about this rug that compels me to want to know its story. An energy that swirls from within its intricate design that beckons me to know more. Radiating through spun yarn are threads of woven history, unknown. Like the DNA that spirals in my very being, there is ancestral knowledge that lives and breathes through me, yet I know not its story.

Without any known past, I suppose the tale begins now. How this rug traveled over 3000 miles across the sea to me. How it slipped from any cyber-trappings that tried to track its trajectory. And now, how its presence completes the space where I write with welcomed perfection. I guess the story starts here.

That every time I look at this rug I feel happiness. That every time I step upon its softness I sense beauty.

The journey begins here.  And so far, I love this ride.

Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reserved

Being With It

I had made other plans for today.

But you know about plans…

Jeb wakes with wild gestures to his throat, signing that he doesn’t feel well enough for school. My inquiry as to whether we need to take him to the doctor is met with strong head shakes in a definitive ‘no’.

I don’t really think he’s that sick. A little congestion, a little scratchy throat. I could push it and make him go. Maybe some would say that’s what a good mother would do. But I don’t have ‘some’ standing in my kitchen. And I’m not feeling like pushing a tide.

Meher Baba

So, I acquiesce. Call the school. Set Jeb up on the couch with a fresh sheet and a magazine. Try to justify this day off from school as a learning opportunity, as he plays the saint-taking-silence and writes notes to me on notebook paper. He’s practicing his spelling and writing skills, right? He’s communicating. He’s telling me his dreams.

“Mom this is the darngris part win I go to sleep I amagin me in a checrs game and win ever I move a checkr stuff comes up in to my nose This is y I think as a sicnst I think I need mor water”

This morning I guess he’s the scientist-saint, slash, medical intuitive, slash, dream interpreter.  Some may say he should be at school studying his spelling.  But I quell that scrutiny as best I can.  Try to silence the judging thoughts.

Taking cues from everything I know and trying to apply it to this curveball in my day, I soften. I do not resist.

I send the necessary emails to the appropriate people, restructuring my schedule as best I can. I choose not to react with stress about this turn of events. I decide I’ll stay calm.

Meher Baba

I come to WordPress, ever committed to posting my daily chronicle. Offer you a glimpse into my impromptu morning. Upload pictures of Meher Baba, which somehow always make me feel better. The man was silent for 30 years. Take a look at his face. He knows something.

Man, I hope I’m starting to get it.

Meher Baba

The Thrill

there are the dare devils
climbing cliff faces
walking tightropes
wrestling alligators
jumping from airplanes

I have no desire
to throw my body from great heights
no need to face mortality
through risking life and limb

but in the realms of the heart
that dangerous
vast space
of vibrantly pumping chambers
I dip more than a toe
in the rich life force waters

I keep diving in
to try

in early exploration days
I’d just part my chest like curtains
show every vulnerability
of my beating heart window
a few select men
I’d let them
reach in to hold it in their palms
just coursing with raw
and risking love

like some thrill seeker
that wants the rush
of the triple corkscrew roller coaster
I still seek the butterflies
to metamorphose
my mind

rattle me
to take the chance
that transparency and truth
will transform me
to a freedom
only found when we
stop
protecting

at the center
of gut and head
these hearts are delicate
though love’s resilient

through bruised
battered
broken
numb
eventually
I’m back to scaling
the dazzling
death-defying
(please give me little deaths)
terrain
of the heart

what is it
that compels me
to dare to be so scared
to face all fears
and feel?

these odysseys
may end
with greater vistas
but there’s no promise
it will be shared

maybe part of the thrill
is knowing
full well
where I may find myself

clinging to some slippery slope
heart pounding
head surrounded
in brightly colored butterflies
morphing

vision vast and new
I may well
be
alone
in this quest
breathless
but oh
so very much
alive

courtesy of apliniste