Feeling the Extraordinary

Returning home on a holiday makes it harder to land. I may have my favorite brand of coffee here, my familiar bed, but I’m still not in my groove.  The suitcase is not yet unpacked and I’ve got a stack of tasks at hand.

The writing workshop I signed up for six months ago, looms ahead in ten days. I’m supposed to bring 750 words describing some kind of extraordinary experience. My life seems like a series of synchronistic events (just like yours) but for some reason, I’m drawing a blank. I can’t seem to cull one phenomenal event.

Marvels aside, life goes on. The referenced dishes from last week’s post have arrived. With a carload of boxes, I drive Jeb and the Bohemian home for dinner. Jeb’s in the backseat practicing blowing bubbles with Orbit gum. The Bohemian’s in the passenger seat with one large hand gently curved to the back of my head. I steer past banana trees and over the one-lane bridge.

From the back seat comes a question from my eight year old’s uninhibited, gum-filled mouth. “Are you guys going to get married?”

I stare straight ahead at the curve in the road, the corners of my mouth turned up in a soft smile. I don’t look at the Bohemian, though I feel him in our collective quiet.

When neither of us answer, Jeb prods, “No, really, just tell me.”

I can’t even sneak a sideways glance, as I hold the wheel and turn into our driveway. Perfect timing.

Jeb adds to the silence, “I hope so.”

I pull up and place the car in park. The Bohemian makes the best reply. “You’ll find out.”

Satisfied, Jeb’s out the door and jumping on his skateboard. I unlock the front door. Busy myself with the unloading of the car and the Bohemian helps me with the boxes, moving in his typical calm with steady ease.

It’s like this with him. He rounds the corners of awkward moments and leaves them to settle in the rear view mirror. He asks me how I want things, then does it. Or sets things up in better ways than I could have imagined.

It’s extraordinary, really. Not the kind that one could see at first glance, like some sort of light show from the beyond (though the man is quite a sight to behold – I’d say he sparkles). No, it’s a quiet kind of phenomenon that’s even more spectacular. A deep inside incredible. The kind that creeps up and surprises you in a slow and steady satisfaction.

It conjures notions of spending days and days with him. It softens me.

It feels, quite simply, extraordinary.

photo by s2art

Opening

There’s been a short pause in the Archives as I land back on home soil.  I’ve been taking time in the garden to stop and smell the Zinnias.

Ok, they may not have a scent but I’m in awe of their geometric grandeur.

In my absence, the Bohemian has been caring for the garden with his signature perfection.  All is growing and thriving!

Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reserved
Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reserved
Jessica Dofflemyer ~ all rights reserved

Traveling the Seam

I’m in the seam
between
here
and there

waking to 30 degrees
and a silent morning
I’m hugged by foothills
veins of quartz
oak trees roots
and sycamore limbs

tonight I’ll be 3000 miles from here
sleeping with the constant
laughing geckos
rooster crows
and warm moonlight
cast
through coconut fronds

today I follow the thread

from the nearest town
population 180
where local post office
transactions are done on a hand calculator
receipts etched on carbon copies

to the authentic Mexican dinner
post cattle branding
where the cowboys dismount
and fill their plates
leaving their spurs and boots at the door
Jeb whispers
“I’m not sure we belong here, mom, because we’re not really cowboys”
but we’ve been invited
and embraced
in this home of the Master Horeseman
he’s known me since I was born

No, I am not a cowboy
and I am not Hawaiian either
I am just some curious human
address
planet earth
settling myself
in different patches
seeking a sense of home
in every landscape
of every moment
traveling the seams
between

taking flight
landing
exploring
settling
I’m clinging to the surface
of a world
swirling
through star dust
and darkness
can you believe it?

Life lets me

still breathing!
heart’s beating!
this is home
Love

                ~ for Dad and Robbin 

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photo by Jeb ~ all rights reserved